Friday, April 23, 2010
I know everything is my fault! And everything started from me. I wouldn't denied it. I just don't understand why are you not doing things that you suppose to do? I know you will give me answer like: I go there only extra only so what's the point of me going, just waste my time. You must understand that sometimes, people are just like that. I know it will like break your heart but I can't control all the things! What else you want me to do? The war has stated but I hope that the war wouldn't cause it to explode or else I really don't know what I can do. I know I make you very sad, I'm sorry. It's just me. If you can accept then accept if you can't, I also cannot force you to. That's all I want to say to you. Don't know if you will see this. Hope that our friendship wouldn't just end here and in this manner. Think you can understand. So, ya...
Fuck you la! Don't trust me, don't believe me, just say la. Must you go round the bush then ask me to say it again to my dad? Fuck you. I don't want to waste my energy talking to you! Annoying piece of shit. I think my brother is far far worst than me but you just don't scold him and you just did nothing to him! WTF. I just want to go back school to study and you are like letter? Can you just stop being an idiot! Anything also want letter. My brother say he got something on in school then you didn't even ask for letter! What logic is this! You are just bias to the max. Until now, he still have cca and it's like going to mid-years, what you did, NOTHING!! I just don't understand why are you like this. If one day you had to forced me, I will just leave the house. It's like no point for me to stay in this house, without anybody's trust and care. I will just be a burden to you so, I should leave and don't come back. I think you will thought of that too. You can't wait for the day that I will leave this house. To them, being a girl is just useless although I knew most of the things. I shouldn't be in the world at all.
It's like a freaking 5 more days to mid-years and seriously, I haven really start studying. Really scared that I will fail. Cause it would either be I passed with flyin colours or I just failed badly. I don't have a choice in my mind. Freaking need a tutor but what my parents did was to ignore what I've told them. I'm trying to understand the sciences but I don't think I can make it. If that's the case, I more I need someone to help me but you just don't understand me. To you, it may be a waste of your money cause you will be thinking that, you must learn on your own, you can't just rely on the tutors. Please, if I really can do it, I wouldn't waste my time to tuitions.
Damm tired and sad Dont know what to do. I'm just stupid enough not to get the right things. But I realized going out with Jazlyn and BearBear is really crazy. They will just shop non-stop. At that time, Agnes, Monkeyyy and me were thinking if we really knew them. Today is just the best day I ever had with Monkeyyy, Jazlyn, bearbear and Agnes. They really make the day more happier.
It's also a lucky day for Anna! Cause it's her birthday!! Happy Birthday to You:) May all your wish come true.
To Monkeyy:
I think I will just go tomorrow. If she really wants to call the school, by all means. I'm not going to care anymore. I will just get a big scolding from her. Sigh.. I really don't know what I can do. Without all the trust and believes from them. But you made my day happier with all the laugher just now:) Thanks for listening to all my craps:) Loveyou always.
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